i look so good!

i just got in an online clothing order for the lasties of my pregnancy. i have mostly been making it by on longer t-shirts from before the pregnancy, but they are all stripey and i kind of look like a bum going to work in them. so i decided to order a few things to make myself look half-decent while at work. i have to say, i never looked good in skinny jeans before.... ever..... ever. but i found these awesome forest green courderoy skinny maternity pants and i drooled at the model for about a half hour before deicding to go ahead and buy them. tuns out, when i have a cute baby bump instead of a not-so-cute muffin top i look GOOD in them! like really good. i am walking on sunshine today, and tooting my own horn. *toot *toot. (i swears, that was my horn, not a bum toot)

also! it is starting to dawn on me, that there will be a baby emerging from this here vagina in the next few months. and the baby will exist and i'll have to make plans around it, and i have the responsibility of not dropping it on its head. (heaven help me)

last night we were booking a hotel for a friend's wedding that we are attending in early summer, and it asked me to indicate how many people will be in the room. its the first time i have had to acklowledge that YES, there will be a small human being with us! my mind started going. well, that means i'll likely have to bring my bassinet basket with us, oh and disposable diapers, and what if the baby is loud during the ceremony! so many extra things to think about! right now the only other person i have to think about is kevin, and he is well trained to be quiet during wedding ceremonies. *pats kevin on the head* "good boy".

anyways, my mind since last night has been racing with all the things that having children entails. will we ever be able to take our punk rock tour down the west coast? how far exactly can you drive in a vehicle with a baby without having to pull over for some reason or another? how many kids can fit into our two small guest rooms? will we ever get renovations started? will i have the energy to plan my garden this spring?

for now, i am sure it will be fine. but these questions have plagued my mind since last night and i am finding myself wondering quite often exactly how much our lives will be changed from having kids. 3 years of just me and kevin is rapidly coming to an end.